Cipro: 1 week down, ?? to go...

God is our refuge and strength,
a very present help in trouble.
Therefore we will not fear though the earth gives way,
though the mountains be moved into the heart of the sea,
though its waters roar and foam,
though the mountains tremble at its swelling.
- Psalm 46:1-2

This passage has been encouraging to me the past few days - anxiety has been a huge problem for me lately - every seemingly "little" thing becomes an enormous, devastating crisis. I feel embarrassed talking about my anxiety, but then I remember that there is a serious battle raging inside my body, especially in my nervous system - it makes sense that anxiety would result from a body so stressed and depleted.

I am having a rough time with the Cipro. I'm confident that it's killing something, hopefully the Bartonella, but it's making me incredibly miserable in the process. Epsom salt baths have helped a little. I'm spending my days too weak to do anything other than lie in bed or on the couch wishing the room would stop spinning, needing more naps than usual, and trying to eat as much as my gag reflex will allow. The days feel blurred together and pass very quickly, yet each moment feels unbearably drawn out.

I'm feeling discouraged, frustrated, and weary. Trying to remain thankful and praise God amidst this struggle. Am I ever glad to know He is fully in control amidst this illness.

Have you not known? Have you not heard?The LORD is the everlasting God,

the Creator of the ends of the earth.

He does not faint or grow weary;

his understanding is unsearchable.

He gives power to the faint,

and to him who has no might he increases strength.

Even youths shall faint and be weary,

and young men shall fall exhausted;

but they who wait for the LORD shall renew their strength;

they shall mount up with wings like eagles;

they shall run and not be weary;

they shall walk and not faint. - Isaiah 40:28-31